Reunion in my dream

I dreamt of ah ma last night. Actually, it was the first time I dreamt of her since she left and coincidentally, it is Qing Ming tomorrow.

Although I couldn't decide whether it was a good or bad dream, it was nice to reunite with her. I dreamt that my parents brought me out for dinner and I saw 2 old ladies in stark white hair. One was my grandma's younger sis, my grandauntie, and I couldn't recognise the other lady till I walked nearer to her. She was my grandma, slightly fleshier on the face with a medical tube connected to her nose. She looked kinda sad and her hair was way whiter than I remembered.

I held onto her hand and just kept crying and crying and crying...till I woke up.

I miss you ah ma. Hope you are happier than what I saw in my dream.

my little niece

She paid a rare visit to my place yesterday. She's really a fast learner, mimicking in a snap of fingers, every word I utter. Amazing how kids these days can understand almost immediately the funny requests adults make them do. I decided to do the funny face thingy with her and she got really excited. Typical instructions from a seasoned camwhore. I said smile, she did. I said puffed face, she performed beyond my expectations. The only difference is that one IS cute, the other is acting cute. haha.

Was talking to sharon san a while when kaili was drawing. brilliant idea to keep kids busy but giving them a box of colored pencils and paper. it works wonders man.

Anyway, told kaili to say HI to sharon jie jie and introduce herself. she did it effortlessly. After sometime, a puzzled look loomed over her face. She kept quiet for a good 10 secs rolling her eyes everywhere as if searching for an answer.

I could still hear sharon rattling on the phone to her but couldn't make out what she was saying. After a while, Kaili, with me plastering the phone on her ears, tried to inch slowly and awkwardly towards the floor to pick up the piece of drawing she did. In bewilderment, she started folding the A4 sized drawing into a thin strip and hovered it near the speaker of the phone for like another 10 secs in silence. I took over the phone to find out the cause of her tortured expression.

Sharon san, in her limited chinese and in anxiousness to create conversation with her, forgot that they are on the phone.

She made a ridiculous request which could possibly scar a kid's childhood memories for life, "画画很美啊，来，拿给姐姐看！omg, that was what super innocent kaili was trying to do... to show stupid sharon jie jie the picture by putting it near the phone! hahahah. shows that her brain processing power is 100x higher than sharon jie jie. tsk tsk. but it was cute man. real cute.

I love coke!

Slurp!

1923 - 16 Feb 2009 - Grandma

totally konked out on bed just now. my eyes and body gave up trying to stay awake. ES was with me but I totally ignored him,unintentionally, as I catch up on my brain food.

Appreciate him being there today. The support among relatives and from friends in times like this makes everything less bleak. Thanks babu and gang and those who shared my grief for my grandma. Your condolences and words of encouragement kept me going.

Death is part and parcel of life but when it comes to the crux, it is humanly impossible to display such rationality.

Just managed to read in detail the exact cause of death stated on the death certificate - Spontaneous Subarachnoid Haemorrhage.

Subarachnoid haemorrhage (SAH) affects a person suddenly and usually without any prior warning.

It is a leakage of blood beneath the arachnoid membrane of the brain from a major blood vessel.

SAH causes the sufferer to develop sudden and severe headache, which is often accompanied by nausea, vomiting, neck stiffness and sometimes collapse, seizure and loss of consciousness.

That explained how sudden the whole episode took. She was well and all. There was indeed no prior warning. No time to even say goodbye.

The week seemed to zoomed by and it was routined. Wake up, wash up, go wake, go home, sleep. Minimal time is wasted between the last 2 activities. It all seemed like a dream. The cremation jolted me out of my dream telling me that grandma has left us. No matter how much I regret not spending much time with her, no matter how much tears i shed, how many times I call out her name, I will not be able to bring her back.

This butterfly was circling around the tentage for the past few days. For a period of time, it rested on the front end of the coffin. After I took the picture, it started flying around me. I am not a superstitious person but at the right time, right place, is it you ah ma?

Life goes on but I am missing you already. I believe you are at a better place now.

Mochi san will be back in action soon.

16 Feb 2009 - Grandma

every smile, every chuckle, every step, the rehearsed and repeated pats she likes to shower on the back of of my hand, the kind sparkle in her eyes when she listens to the stories I tell her, the peaceful look she exudes when she nods off at the sofa...

These will keep my memory flooded for sometime.

F1 Fun Walk 30 August 2008

Too many activities going on.. these are pretty belated posts. Not my style to be belated! haha.

Anyway, the walk was short and pathetic. Really need a better event organiser la. lucky I had my camera to keep me occupied. Spent some quality time with otosan and mama san.

~ enjoying the mini fan from the goodie bag.... F1 Pit Stop in the background~

~mama san was so elated to take pics with the singtel F1 gals...~

~beautiful pic of reflection taken on our walk along the kallang river on our way to the shuttle bus~

Dim Sum @ Peach Garden

celebrated chichi and ototo san's bday today. decided to treat them to Peach Garden located at OCBC Centre 33rd Floor. Tried the dim sum there before and thought standard not bad. Bring your parents there, they'll love it. yummy. OCBC cards get a 10% off total bill and OCBC platinium and titanium cards get a 15% off. heh.

Been blogging about food. A testimony of how much I've been eating. And I still feel like eating durian. can you believe it.

~the carrot cake is oishii!! nicer than HK dim sum carrot cake..heh. i prefer localised taste~

~ the char siew soh is soft and crumbly. Melts in your mouth almost immediately.. sugoi!!~

~ my dad's photography skills.. super focus on the sauce plates..~

~super yummy prawn siew mai.. QQ to each bite. full marks! one of the best I've eaten.~

~ mochi is trigger happy.......ANYwhere.~

chichi san brought mama san to see singapore flyer...so we drove along esplanade area to catch a glimpse of the flyer.

~ taken while cruising along esplanade to show mama san the Singapore flyer.~